Eulogy?

I dont think about you everyday, I hate to admit it, but I don't. I cant believe its been 8 years since you left too soon. I don't think about you as much because I don't think I could take the What Ifs? that come with that. We have this beautiful child now, that I wish you'd gotten a chance to meet, He is so full of life,and hilarious. You would love him. I cant help but wonder if you had to go for him to come. I wish things were different. I wish my baby sis were turning 20 today. But God knows best.