Thursday, December 23, 2010

THE HOUND OF HEAVEN- Francis Thompson

The Hound of Heaven



I fled Him down the nights and down the days
I fled Him down the arches of the years
I fled Him down the labyrinthine ways
Of my own mind, and in the midst of tears
I hid from him, and under running laughter.
Up vistaed hopes I sped and shot precipitated
Adown titanic glooms of chasme d hears
From those strong feet that followed, followed after
But with unhurrying chase and unperturbe d pace,
Deliberate speed, majestic instancy,
They beat, and a Voice beat,
More instant than the feet:
All things betray thee who betrayest me

The poem is MUCH longer, its pretty MIND BLOWING. You should look it up! OF COURSE I didnt write it, Francis Thompson (1859-1907) did

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

The Amazing thing about God is that

He does NOT work the way we expect him to. LOL, It keeps things very interesting.

In my mind I was certain that the T.A. would be nice enough to bump me up to a B in the Lab, and coupled with a B in History of War and Violence in America, I would pull out with a 3.78 GPA. And be alright with it,

SINCE, my goal freshman yr was to graduate with no less that 3.75 GPA.

As God would have it. She did NOT bump me up to a B in the lab (which is a ONE HOUR CLASS) hence not affecting my GPA by much!

THE MIRACLE though was I got an A in the History class. AN A Y'ALL! And it might sound like, Well, OKAY, sure you sound like a smart cookie, I bet you get A's all the time


WELL, sometimes I do!

BUT this class was an Honors Class, and the thing about Honors classes is they ALWAYS make me feel slightly SUB PAR. And this class was NO exception
I still cant differentiate a B-52 aircraft from..... whichever other one there are.

SOOOOOOOO Yea, It was ONLY through the favor of God which is ABSOLUTELY upon me, thats I got an A in the class bringing my GPA to a BEAUTIFUL 3.80.

Theme of the Story is: HIS WAYS ARE NOT OUR WAYS and this is a GOOD THING

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

HOW IN THE WORLD DID I END UP WITH A C??


Okay, SO of course by the end of reading this you're gonna think Im OVERREACTING, but who cares, beacause I dont like not making the grades that I WANT! lol, lemme explain.

For my last science requirement, I enrolled in Contemporary Biology against my better judgement (I strongly dislike the sciences). Anyway, I enrolled in an 8a.m. LAb (1hr credit) so I can have my days the way I want them, AND it was pretty challenging getting used to waking up and walking to class on some days when the weather was YUCK, or i stayed up too late.

ANYWAY, as a result of a few tardies and missed PreQuizzes, a B on the FInal and a bunch of raggedy grades, I have a C in this class. And part of the reason this is o upsetting is that, It really is NOT A BIG DEAL, but I wanted to say I made A's and a few B's in college, NOT ever have to mention the other letters!

THIS IS SAD!

And now Im done venting.

Monday, December 6, 2010

LET GO OF ME!

Im gonna be RANDOM right now!

You know something that really grinds my gears! People who give extended hugs. Like there should be a rule about not letting a hug last over 10seconds!

Okay, like I see you, Im walking to class or bible study or wherever, and you go, HEY AYO, and we decide to share a hug, this does NOT mean I want to walk away smelling like you body spray, aftershave, flowery scent, perfume or deodorant.... SMH

Im not actually venting against a specific scenario, but at some point you have to LET GO OF ME!

I am certain that I am not alone in this opinion.

Only time when in MY opinion long hugs are appropriate, is if it is meant to comfort, like if someone tells you they just lost a family member, friend, loved one, or a relationship just ended, or they just failed a test.

ANYWAY thats it!
If you didnt know , NOW you KNOW!

Saturday, December 4, 2010

WHAT IF?

Some of the things I think about?
What if my parents had stayed Muslim?
What if my Dad never purchased a Visa Lottery ticket?
What If my parents never decided to take the opportunity and move to America?
What If I never went to Dicovery Camp in 2005 as an Intern?
What if I never gave my heart to Jesus?
What If I never became a BEARKAT?
What If I never applied to work at KAA u know?
What I never joined ASA?
What If my mother never had TJ?
What if
What If

What IF???


Well, thank God I never have to experience a life with the absense of the events listed up what have all significantly changed my life.

Thank YOU LORD! FOR
JeREMIAH 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.


Proverbs 16:9
In his heart a man plans his course, but the LORD determines his steps.

Friday, December 3, 2010

WHo am i?????

SLIGHT IDENTITY CRISIS:

Not really.

But I remember 7 YEARS AGO! Feels like just yesterday, when I Moved to America.

I mean, Living Nigeria till I was 13yrs old, if you had asked what it means to be Nigerian, I woulda been like, um, I UNNO.

But when you live in an extremely Heterogeneous society, it forces you to identify yourself one way or another. In high school a decision had to be made, Be the MAMA Africa type person who randomly wears Nigerian clothes and speaks "NIGERIAN" (that cracks me up so much, like American and Mexican are also languages, smh @ignorant people)
OR

EVOLVE: Be the OVERLY americanized Nigerian and reINVENT myself.

Well, being the RANDOMO that I am, I flirted with both options and chose the third option. DO BOTH!
MAintain my Nigerian Identity (soon as I discover what that means) AND Adapt into the new environment that I reside in.

I also had to learn that my TRUE identity canNOT come from an ethnic group or nationality rather my Father, and Im not speaking of Mr Shittu, Rather, the Creator of the UNiverse.


Anyway, Its been 7yrs now, and people RANDOMLY realize I have an accent, or that I dont have an accent, or that I have a british accent. I can effectively communicate the Nigerian "story" and identity before any group of people. But SOMETIMES i cant help feeling that maybe I am too americanized, which is alway dependent on who I am around.

OH well. I still enjoy eating JOllof rice SOMEtimes. I mostly like cooking CHicken, and Pasta dishes. So, unless I specifically tell you Im cooking Nigerian food, Im prolly not!

Thursday, December 2, 2010

10 tips to help you succesfully flunk out of college

These are tips you should take VERY seriously if you graduated high school and you decided you are going to go to college to BURN someone's $$ parents or govt.
Remember Success is ONLY an option. You can always live in someone's attic, walk everywhere and be a bum

1. DO NOT GO TO CLASS
You may accidentally leearn something. If you do have to go, to keep your financial aid status, or to have something do to, MAKE SURE you sit in the back, bring your laptop and spend the entire time on facebook.

2. DO NOT TALK TO YOUR CLASSMATES
This is another one that important. Thing is, if you were trying to be succesful you would want to get to know a few people in your classes that way you can set up a sstudy group, OR if you need help with an assignement, you can call them. So, yea, NO befriending classmates, dangerous to the goal.

3. PARTY PARTY PARTY
Essentially, for this goal to happen, you have to attend EVERY social event on campus and off. If you get a flyer you should attend, BECAUSE, since you're skilling class, you have a lot of time on your hand. SO, go to EVERYTHING, even if you have a test in your 8a.m. class.

4. RATEMYPROFESSOR is your enemy
Some people like to use websites of this nature to make sure their potential professor's teaching style fits their learning style so they can Ace classes. And make sure they arent simply weird professors who assign busy work. BUT, sounds pretty STUPID, so dont use it.

5. NEVER get a planner or calendar.
With all the classes you'll be enrolled for, all those teachers will have deadlines and test dates on something called a syllabus, and a planner helps keep it all organized along with other social and organization engagements, including a way to plan for the week ahead. So, STAY away from them, they reek of Success wanters.

6. DONT EVER DO ANYTHING CHALLENGING
Sometimes school gets mundane and some PEOPLE find ways to challenge themselves by eithe rtaking leadership roles in on campus organizations, or joining an Honors Program, or reading a book here and there or striving for a GREAT GPA. If you plan on sticking to this plan, you cannot be challenged, unless the challenge is how much sleep can you get without starving.

hMMMM I guess since this blog is about how to flunk out, I cant get up to a top 10 list! Oh well, If you do all these things and you are STILL a fully enrolled student in good academic standiing, then you are NOT doing something right


ON A MORE SERIOUS NOT!
Take school seriously,
MAKE SURE Your Priorities are STRAIGHT!
God first and everything else falls in PLACE
Dont skip church, because the devil be tryna get you messed up, ESP freshman yr.
And as a friend told me summer after high scholl graduation: Liquid Shower soap is your friend. LOL, seriously tho, in them itty bitty freshman dorm showers...... it makes sense.

THAT IS ALL!
GRADUATING MAY 2011 Magna cum laude by His grace with a B.A IN Criminal Justice

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

THANKSGIVING PT 2

The night after I made the group, I visited a friend’s church where the Pastor who has the gift of Prophecy (QUICK PLUG, CHECK out Global Impact Ministries, Humble TX) randomly picked me out and said “the School thing that’s not paid for, will be taken care of.”


With renewed confidence, I started inviting friends to the facebook group, and SLOWLY but surely, I got the first donor, and a few more, and then more, and some people went ABOVE and beyond. Like, I had a friend who donated $200!!!!!!!!!!! I remember the moment when I saw that donation, I burst into tears just realizing that this was SO GOD! Because there is an economic recession, and me in my own element is JUST not that amazing to have people dropping their HARD EARNED $$ for me to go to London!

ANYWAY through it all, God was just SHOWING OFF on Proverbs 21:1.
My dad had told me during Christmas break he was going to pay for my Flight, so WHEWWWWWWW, huge monkey off my back, I bought my ticket by March, I THINK! So, I was good to go! Anyway, the donations came in slowly, but, you know, 68 is a big number, and I probably still needed about 35people ($875) by the ONE MONTH TO EUROPE deadline.

FLIGHT LEAVING JUNE 7TH
Last week of school, AGAIN, ALL GOD, because to HIM alone does the glory belong. I decided to go to the Honors College end of semester non-mandatory mandatory meeting, lol. I didn’t have to go, but I had an hour to spare between class and work, so here I am in this meeting when the Director commented on having done an exquisite job of fundraising at our annual fundraiser, and the College had funds to SUPPORT students in summer escapades. And like a cartoon, all I saw was $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$. After the meeting, I spoke to him about my situation, and he told me what protocol I needed to follow.

All through this process, I had NO IDEA how much to expect, because they hadn’t said exactly how much $$$ the word “support” translates to. I found out they were giving me $700 like May 22nd, putting me at less than $200 from MY GOAL! HOW AMAZING!  ALL THE WAY!

SOMEHOW I came from needing $4000 to needing less than $200 which I did NOT mind putting on my credit card.
So as to end this lengthy story, I am so glad that I have a FATHER who canNOT and WILL NOT fail me, and I had an AMAZING time in Europe, Cant wait to return.

THAT IS ALL!

THANKSGIVING

With thanksgiving just past, I thought it befitting to post this note/blog to show my appreciation and POSSIBLY encourage somebody out there that it is PERFECTLY alright and quite necessary to DREAM BIG, and trust in the Lordship of the Lord over your life.



I remember wondering as a little girl why God ha so MANY names. In Sunday school, we took a test over matching names to meanings, like Jehovah Shalom- Lord my Peace (Judges 6:24) ; Lord Tsidkenu- God my righteousness (Jer 23:6); Jehovah-Mekaddishkem Lord my sanctification(Ex 31:13) to name a few. As I got older I started to understand, at least for myself that in times of specific needs it is comforting to think of God in the applicable terms, EX: If I feel like Im losing my peace over a situation, I am comforted in the knowledge of Jehovah Shalom.





All that to make the point that during the Spring 2010 semester, I had to call on God, my father in a time of need.

REWIND! I always wanted to travel and I especially was interested in a study abroad program and the unique experience of that, so I decided that Summer 2010 I was going to Europe. How I would pay for it was not something I bothered myself with. As time got closer and deposits became due, I started thinking about different ways I would have to come up with the total sum, which by my calculations was around $4000.


**SIDE NOTE!** It was $4000 because separate from the London Study Abroad organized by the school, I wanted to take a detour and visit Paris (I’ve been taking French since high school, so it was ONLY proper that I visit the beautiful city of Paris), therefore increasing my cost!

I remember one afternoon thinking and playing with the calculator , I got a “revelation” about God. The fact that earthly fathers are given the duty of providing for their children, how much MORE, my heavenly father who calls me his precious daughter! DUH!!!!! So, from that point on, I STILL didn’t know how I was getting the money, but I knew my Father would make it happen!

OKAY to the MEAT OF THE STORY!

Through what can ONLY be divine intervention, I got the idea to start a facebook group to get people donate. I figured with what I had saved, If I could get 68 people to donate $25 to my study abroad trip, Europe 2010 would be a REALITY!

HOPE


SO, I applied for the Texas Legislative INternship Program, and did not get it! Super Sad face, cuz I REALLY REALLY wanted it,a nd so much happened with that, I cant go into too much detail, but the devil is a foolish man. ANYWAY, So, for teh first few days I was like, YEA, NO BIG DEAL, on the next!

AND THEN, i got really sad about it, not specificially that I didnt get the internship, but more so trying to figure out EXACTLY what to do next semester, cuz I graduate in MAy, and I need job experience to be able to find a post grad job.

BUT I had to realize, (thanks to some amazing friends) that the Lord has got this, I mean, he's ONLY the creator of Heaven and Eart, Lover of my soul, and much more. SOOOOOO Im officially out of my silly funk, and back to TRUSTING the Lord because with him on my side, Im gonna be JUST fine.

oN ANOTHER end of things, Faith IS an action word, SO, I faxed in an application for District Attorney office in Travis County, AND will be turning in an application for a Minority Internship in the DC area, so #LETSGO God! :) WILL be keeping you all updated!

My new favorite expression IS Walking on Water (also a track of LEcrae's Rehab album)Which is WHAT Faith is, Walking on water like Peter adn trusting God to, lol defy Physics